there's a voice in my head suddenly asking,
'why dont you trust that you will find someone better than him?'
'? no, i have never said that. i have never said that i dont believe there's a more compatible and connected- guy out there available, born for me'
'oh realllllly? then what are you doing by keep bringing yourself down and sabotaging your own happiness by getting moody and sad day by day. how long has it been??'
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and so it had been pressed down to me today, and i have to admit it's true. i never put it out in words, but im still feeling sad, and it's because unconsciously, as i look back and feel grateful for his companionship and those little things that he did and the way he acted, i really like his character and up bringing.
and so unconsciously without i knowing, i am telling myself he is the best i that had ever arrived. i know nobody who is like him. and i believe i wont know anybody better than him.
that's a self sabotaging statement. self sabotaging belief. self sabotaging destruction. that's a WRONG belief.
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