My perception

thank you dear, for your encouragement...hugs. that alarm system is on leave for the few past days i think, but it will be back.

today is a public holiday. and it's such a beautiful day. mom and dad fly off to penang for medical check up.

back then, on this kind of day, i would really really wish we are physically at the same town, we could go out and hang out together instead of stuck in front of the computer chatting. i wanted somebody real. who are close, who could be around when i needed him. to go groceries. dinner. see doctor. movie. ect ect.

i tell you what, today i have all the freedom and time to go out but i have just nobody to go out with. nobody.

i asked few friends, all negative answer.


perhaps this is one of the lesson, i just want to share it here. although this one seems to be a difficult one to master.


one of my bestie, the one who frowned the most about my story, always encourage me to find someone closer. if you have one closer, why choose the one who cant be there for you when you needed him? sounds true, there's a truth in it. i should find a local date. so i thought.

but today, it had been revealed to me that it isn't a fully true statement. it's not really applicable. and it should be override with something that said,

just appreciate whoever you are with right now. and i would add, be it close or far. because distance matters little when it comes to the matter of the heart.....

even if you are the president of USA, who knows thousands of people, at a particular point of time, he could only be with a particular group of people. that's how life works. we really have limited time and energy to give our attention to everybody. even if we could, other people have their own schedules too...

if you got what i mean. i explained it in such a poor example.