My perception

i think im emotionally unstable.

so, i deactivate my facebook account.

seeing friends write '(their name) & (their partner name)' brought in a bad rush of negative feeling.

i took another look at his facebook and saw that post. - his name & that girl's name -

i trust that with this break from facebook i am going to be easier on my way of recovery.

fear still rush in like a ghost trying to suck the life out of me. i dont even sure what im so afraid of. or why i should feel afraid. or if this is really relevant with a departure.

last night it was raining hard and i felt happy and contented listening to the rythmn of the rain. safe and warm, thinking the same rain brought in so much sadness and fear the few days ago.

btw. prayers really help.

it's time to stop forcing my heart to listen to me and instead, keep quite and let my heart speak. and just listen to her because between the two of us, i trust that she is the older and wiser one.

if any of you miss me XD hahahaha....email me =D soon i will get a smartphone and we can keep in touch through whatsapp!