and im officially 26th.

i look back and i see not much had been done in 25th. no milestone. nothing much to say about it.

i didn't move any closer to any dreams. i didn't in particular make more friends. i dont exactly grow as much as i was in 24th. and my birthday wish last year didn't come true.

let's change it now. for this 26th. let's start by promising to be kind to everybody. and not to allows any soul to bring me down. no matter what.

a step closer. i think i am a step closer to open my heart again.

a year. almost a year. that's how long it takes.

hopefully i get to be friend with you, to travel with you, and share many things with you.

'God will makes everything beautiful in its time' have faith girl.

thanks God for my bangkok trip, it was the best holiday trip ever. seriously.

i made a good arrangements, my work was properly arranged before i left, and also i had a good rest before departure. i love the hostel and it was super cheap. 

and above all, i travelled with the best companion ever. my soul sister whom i had known for 10 years by now.

and Universe had protected us throughout the journey too. the korean hostel-room mate said it had been raining for the past few days but the next day it was all sunny. which allowed us to proceed with our initial plans =)

and the best thing about travelling with her probably will be that no matter how tired we get, we can still talk about something that could lighten up our mood. 

so, im back to bangkok five years later, to fulfil my promise during my first visit.

im back to bangkok without achieving any of my targets back then. except maybe to study at western country.

so i made new goal, and i will be going back when i turn 30 =)

Donald Trump said, THINK BIG and Will Smith said, PROTECT YOUR DREAM

this morning i went out to meet a very old friend, to catch up with her. she is currently in the midst of preparing for her marriage. so long hasn't talk to her.

she is one of the coolest headed- confident- dont give a shit-kind of girl. clear cut and decisive.

so much to learn from her. a very inspiring breakfast talk.

she shared with me her insight. and pointed out few times that there's no perfect match couple. the character wont match or click instantly. it will need lots of work to make it work. that's the point of a relationship.

and also i realize, i cannot afford to bring him up anymore. it still hurt and i am still sad thinking, at the back of my mind, wishing for the unnecessary thing. i will not talk about him to any friend anymore from this day onward.

i get dishearten easily. i feel out of place easily. and i feel rejected easily.

but i want to change all that, to become stronger and emotionally independent. confident.

and because im this way, i have to work harder than other people.

so much fighting the voices in my head that's constantly dragging me down.

Tonight's radio topic is about first love, or public transport love encounter.

there's a lady who called in to tell about how she caught a guy's eyes. she was in the bus, he was at the bus stop. this was her first love story.

it turned out that he lived in the same floor, and his sister was her friend. but she had not been noticing him because she worked in the day time and went to night school. so they hardly bumped into each other. but that was term break. so they met.

it also turned out that her younger sister had a crush on him. and subsequently, her cousin sister who came for a visit also fell for him. (awww. the DJ started asking, he must be very handsome!!)

but despite all of that, the guy had been trying his best to showed her his intention. like how once they were all having activity together. he purposely went home to change his attire to something similar of that lady's. noticing that, she quickly went home to change to something else because she felt her younger sister was very unhappy about it. but-he quickly went to change for the second time, insisting the couple-look-attire.

(aww,so seeeeweeeettt)

but to her back then, family was her priority so she ended it because didn't want her younger sister to be upset.

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btw, when i was in singapore, i often see a very cute guy riding on the same bus as i was. he boarded before my stop and get down after my stop.

he always dress up casual. just tshirt and jeans. i think he can't be an office worker. and i used to have a very late office check in hour, so it was around 9.30 in the morning when i usually caught the bus., 20 mins ride.

sometimes, i met him on bus when i went home. definitely he works somewhere around my office area too.

this kind of things makes you wonder isn't it?