thank you samsung S1, without you i wont have what i had. those important memories.
i told her it's been doing nothing but collecting dust at my table. i better take my shot.
then i realize something.
why the phone crashed was beyond me. and why it crashed at the time it chose is also beyond me. but surely it happened for a reason that i cannot understand now.
today i see that it was a test. it was actually a test. i should have understand that my smart phone is a very crucial element to get in touch with him who is thousand miles away. i shouldn't have underestimate that power and being ignorant and thought we can still leave each other emails or sms.
it didn't work. i crashed. i ended up being greedy and turning insecure and then running towards the exit as if it's a race -either he abandon me or i leave first. my mind had turned me into a lunatic!!
i should always take good care of the instrument, the carriage. the story might turn out differently if let's say we had known each other for years. but we aren't. stupid me.
Paulo's words in his book has brought some cool breeze to sooth my pain of knowing i ruin everything.
mistakes happen so we could learn from it and evolved. it is a necessary element of the growth.
Lord, may i be given the wisdom to understand the meaning of this, and of everything else that will come or had come on my way.
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