My perception

i feel uncomfortable. very uncomfortable.

it's quite a long background story. to cut it short, i feel that this old friend fancy me. but apart from few actions, he has never asked me out, never text or msg asked how's my day. or initiating any talk. interested in my days.

and he carry awkward uncomfortable aura around him. so down. couldn't and doesn't want to mingle around the guys i usually hangout with. we-usually hang out with actually. he knows everybody.

it's almost always a day delay in replying my invites to go out for outing. at times when he showed up, he is such a dark shadow that doesn't put any effort to be comfortable around the others.

do i feel uncomfortable because i feel responsible for asking him to join us?

or do i feel disgusted? or what?

is it that deep down i actually doesn't believe anybody could like me?