overriding bad memory

I am grateful to be given chances to override some painful memory about my childhood. Today, I am not shame to say I didn’t have a nice memory about my primary and junior high school time. God listened to my prayer and my life is getting better, and I am really grateful about it.

I belief that because I had such sad memories of my childhood that today I can write about how grateful I am for had found some great friends and experiences many happy memories.

I had wanted to write this earlier, but nevertheless, always putting important things at the back of the list, I am so sorry to myself.

Since I am small, my hearing wasn’t excellent. Thanks God, it isn’t something big or disturbing, but I had this particular painful memory. It was especially painful to the old me, being a super shy, conscious and low esteem-person in my primary school time.

I still can vividly remember my primary 5 classroom, the wind, the color of the timber table and chairs, the white tiles, on the highest floor of 3 storey building. I was schooled at girl school; I think our class had around 16+ girls.

I can’t remember which subject it was-most probably at bahasa Indonesia class- the teacher decided to play games and group us into 2 –or 3 groups, and lined us up, then create a super-long-sentence and pass it to the 1st person on the line. Yup, the –passing-sentence-hearing-test- whereby you had to whisper the complete sentence in shortest time till the end of the line.

That simple game was humiliating.

Because I (and eventually the rest of the group) drew up a conclusion at last that most of the time it was me who screwed the team up.

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But God gave me a chance to override it. Not the memory, but the feeling attached to that particular memory.

Out of the blue I found myself among a bunch of Indonesian (new) friends that was having gathering and decided to play some games to warm up and one of the game was the-passing-sentence-game.

This time around, it wasn’t that bad. It was good.

It was filled with laugh and though my hearing didn’t improve much, this time was different because I enjoy it as a game. I had learned to loosen up and laugh at myself.

God, thank you very much! And also thanks to Juwita for bringing me to the gathering! You are my angel, and I am not exaggerating!

we got married - wedding album

lol kawan kawan... take a look... for your future reference :p









the 1st couple 'white gold theme is their fav. color ^^ then..the 3rd couple...i really love the outdoor shoot!

my favourites: 3.22, 4.58, 5.02, 5.19, 6.16 ~i love her dress!, 6.20, 6.36 ~hv a good feel!

ahhaha...after finding all those pics i mention above...it must be obvious that i am extremely bias towards green and outdoor shoot ^^

We got married - 100th day wedding photo shoot (2)

the jumping part is amazing! ^o^ i like it!



the pictures taken on the bus turns out really well! love it!



i like best the scene at the park bench! arggggg it is actually i cant make up my mind, i L.O.V.E it all!
*well kawan kawan... we can take this as early research for the future...hahahahaha~ i mean pre wedding photos idea!

tutorial - girly curl

this girl have some smarts and 'made it easy' tips! i didnt know we can curl our hair that way!

^o^ learn something new today...thanks to this girl~

We got married - 100th day wedding photo shoot

on the 100th day the couple had a wedding photo shot! ^o^ i love their photos! it turn out great :D

we got married - hyunjoong hwang bo cut

We Got married. this is the show that i am so crazy about recently. and this is the cut from my favourite couple. so glad there's someone upload it with english sub! God bless whoever that did this!

below is one of my favourite episode! find the rest on youtube! i love hyun joong and hwang bo! *wait, let me clarify. i didnt like him when i saw him on boys b4 flower, but he is different here! ^o^

i met aslan

...in my dream.

oh, do you guys know Aslan? he is the huge gentle lion who created Narnia land.

thought the setting is not narnia, i am glad that when i woke up, i remember my dream!

my dream began with my bro, my sis and i was somewhere, urm, he wasn't exactly my bro, a younger and shorter and i dont have any sister. you guys might as well think of the 3 siblings from the series of unfortunate events.wait. almost exactly. except that this is the asian version.

the whole story was... we somehow saw a man carried a body on his back, then a lawn, then the covered earth. but all that i saw was their half bottom. i had no memory of all bout their faces, even the corpse (well, it was dream... i somehow arrived at the conclusion that he carried a dead body and burried it at the garden in the day light time)

then the next scene i was chasing after my sis at a place that looks like a shopping centre, and while running passed by a big standing advertisement, there's a black figure standing there. (and somehow it means the killer was stalking us)

and the next scene i was pretending not knowing about his presence but dragged my sis and ran to the ladies and try to trick him with hiding in the cubical...

and the next scene i was running in the open field, urm more like the atrium of the shopping centre, or something like a big and wide entrance of a disney land, and there's alot of lions in few groups, looks like they are the performers or offering seat to the customers,

and i ran towards a huge lion which wears some dark blue -red- shinny rob, and in my dream he was Aslan, and i jumped unto him and then he flies off.

oh wait. Aslan in narnia doesnt fly, i know that.

but the huge and fluffy lion talks! and he saved me from the stalker!

and so that's the story of me meeting Aslan. i hoped he flied me off to narnia hahahahaha~