konbanchiwa~
it's 7 and i had finished my plans since 5 something, doing some cleaning to my table (it's so dusty and messy here!) and trying to figure out why the speaker is not working.
(it's un-plug...no wonder...che...tomorrow i will try it de!the office is so quite, every noon i will fall asleep)
btw, eileen is a funny girl, yesterday we go eat lunch at a so-called-nice-place for wantan noodle. all of us (Hendra, Lau, Nat, Lin, and i) were eating wantan noodle except for Eileen.
Me: Eileen, what are you eating?
E: curry chicken...without chicken..
Me: .......... erm, how you order it?
E: Hendra ordere it for me -heehee-
hahaha, finally i really met somebody who actually eat curry chicken noodle without chicken!
she even said she like chicken rice, but when she eat one she will only order the rice.
hahaha omg~ so funny..... it's bcoz since small she is in a vegetarian family. Now when she grown up she just dont like meat. no chicken, no duck, dont like pork, never touch mutton.
(i wonder how her future husband can cope with this :p i hope she will find some vegetarian guy too hahaha)
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
New office at Singapore
Konbanchiwa~
now it's 6.02 at new office. i had finished my job for today (i really hope it is done correctly...the one i did yesterday was totally wrong so i spent whole day redo-ing it)
my new office is ORB associates. it's a small ID firm at Little india, Singapore. (actually it's almost in the middle between bugis and little india MRT - i had to walk 15 min from both station to office)
there's only 9 of us here. the boss is Hendra, and 2 of his partners: Mr. Lau and Monica. (btw, Hendra is a indonesian. even though he dont even speak indon ^^; he stayed at singapore since long long time ago)
then for workers there are 6: Caroline, Natalia, Jai, Lin, Ellaine and i. (Caroline is from Jakarta, Natalia is from Cirebon, and Jai is from Batam. Lin is malaysian, and Ellaine is singaporean who is having internship here)
so you see, out of 9, 5 are indonesian ^^; here we mostly talk sing-lish (or hokkian) oh~and here are female dominated ^^
i will start working officially July, now at office helping small assignments.
and will back KL next week to do my-KL-tourist tour-before i officially start work here :)
now it's 6.02 at new office. i had finished my job for today (i really hope it is done correctly...the one i did yesterday was totally wrong so i spent whole day redo-ing it)
my new office is ORB associates. it's a small ID firm at Little india, Singapore. (actually it's almost in the middle between bugis and little india MRT - i had to walk 15 min from both station to office)
there's only 9 of us here. the boss is Hendra, and 2 of his partners: Mr. Lau and Monica. (btw, Hendra is a indonesian. even though he dont even speak indon ^^; he stayed at singapore since long long time ago)
then for workers there are 6: Caroline, Natalia, Jai, Lin, Ellaine and i. (Caroline is from Jakarta, Natalia is from Cirebon, and Jai is from Batam. Lin is malaysian, and Ellaine is singaporean who is having internship here)
so you see, out of 9, 5 are indonesian ^^; here we mostly talk sing-lish (or hokkian) oh~and here are female dominated ^^
i will start working officially July, now at office helping small assignments.
and will back KL next week to do my-KL-tourist tour-before i officially start work here :)
Saturday, May 31, 2008
lately
this is what i had been working on lately~ so glad to see the 1st draft ^^ this is 1st time i actually play with more than 3 colors ^^
networking lounge / pantry
networking lounge / pantry(2 more to rush tonight T_T i feel sick.... not enough sleep and food....)
Monday, May 26, 2008
life cycle, is that what you call it?
*wanted to do a quick blog entry~
today i woke up early and back to sleep till 12, it really doesn't feel good to woke up that late. after lunch i continue to do my 1st assignment from new boss, an office and commercial space for Singapore Sport Council. just the schematic design. i found the idea yesterday after browsing at borders timesquare.
nah. today i suppose have to finished the floor plan and all T_T but now it's 8 and i have nothing T_T haizz... boss coming to KL tomorrow T_T
but nevertheless, i am glad i had something to make my brain run.
kaemin lend me another book, (after our poker game last night~where bun wins almost all the rounds hahaha) the title is...erm. i forgotten haha (it's upstairs, lazy to take it) thanks Kaemin for being so caring :) and she offered me to follow her to ipoh 2 weeks later!
and hocksoon invites me to his blog. nothing much bout updated news, but came across the one about our cameron trip. such a happy trip. my 1st trip traveling with friends :)
and then i browse back some old pictures from my external harddisc. as time passed, people change, feeling change, make the situation change. make me realize how much i have to cherish every single moment because there's no time machine to turn back to the same position again.
sad. yah. but it's necessary to feel sad so that i can understand what is happy. because we are human, who don't know what we have until we have lost it.
at this moment, i really wish i can be there again, we can be together again and feeling the same feel as it used to be.
we wont i guest, something had been broken. my perception change. i don't like the new one, but i can't help to have it. my head and heart is fighting (and make me hungry). haiz. human. excuses!
it is a strength to be naive at this age. if i am still that naive then i can escape from this current state of unhappiness. or maybe ignorance will help. but where cares still live, it's hard to close your eyes. i want to see this in a more simple way. Help me please God...
i belief that every single things have it's life cycle. but do friendship included in this case? i guest it is, that's why we are so afraid of it and like to say : friendship forever, friendship never ends. bla bla. but if it is really a forever one then we wont bother to mention right?
it must be depending on our effort then to keep it forever or not.
geez. i said i will do a quick one.
today i woke up early and back to sleep till 12, it really doesn't feel good to woke up that late. after lunch i continue to do my 1st assignment from new boss, an office and commercial space for Singapore Sport Council. just the schematic design. i found the idea yesterday after browsing at borders timesquare.
nah. today i suppose have to finished the floor plan and all T_T but now it's 8 and i have nothing T_T haizz... boss coming to KL tomorrow T_T
but nevertheless, i am glad i had something to make my brain run.
kaemin lend me another book, (after our poker game last night~where bun wins almost all the rounds hahaha) the title is...erm. i forgotten haha (it's upstairs, lazy to take it) thanks Kaemin for being so caring :) and she offered me to follow her to ipoh 2 weeks later!
and hocksoon invites me to his blog. nothing much bout updated news, but came across the one about our cameron trip. such a happy trip. my 1st trip traveling with friends :)
and then i browse back some old pictures from my external harddisc. as time passed, people change, feeling change, make the situation change. make me realize how much i have to cherish every single moment because there's no time machine to turn back to the same position again.
sad. yah. but it's necessary to feel sad so that i can understand what is happy. because we are human, who don't know what we have until we have lost it.
at this moment, i really wish i can be there again, we can be together again and feeling the same feel as it used to be.
we wont i guest, something had been broken. my perception change. i don't like the new one, but i can't help to have it. my head and heart is fighting (and make me hungry). haiz. human. excuses!
it is a strength to be naive at this age. if i am still that naive then i can escape from this current state of unhappiness. or maybe ignorance will help. but where cares still live, it's hard to close your eyes. i want to see this in a more simple way. Help me please God...
i belief that every single things have it's life cycle. but do friendship included in this case? i guest it is, that's why we are so afraid of it and like to say : friendship forever, friendship never ends. bla bla. but if it is really a forever one then we wont bother to mention right?
it must be depending on our effort then to keep it forever or not.
geez. i said i will do a quick one.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
love - my version
I believe in God, what about you? I know that I'm blessed, what about you?
Let me share with you a story, kinda ridiculous actually but it's oK, coz I wanted to prove that God's Love exist.
Last year, there's time when i was wondering what is love. (haha, i remember i had it in this blog, some post about it) I asked myself, what is love. not family or friend love, but love between he and she. I'm 20 and i can't identify what is love.
So i prayed and ask Lord: Lord, I'm 20 and i don't know what is love. I'm curious, can you teach me what is it? Can you show me how to identify love? Can you tel me what is it? Love-that everyone talks about. I wanted to know.
Today, half year had passed and i had that answer with me now. God had somehow teach me what it is, show me what it feels like through this time. it's only now when i looked back that i realize all those things that happened are answer to my own prayer.
had i become wiser now? i hope i am. now i had my own definition of it. Love is the feeling that you still want to care for him even though you had been hurt and you know where he sets his heart to. I made it sounds so pitiful, but it is not. it's a very light feeling. something calm and cooling. Not needy and not demanding.
yup, i can say that i had met love. this journey had give me the answer to my question. and i think it's enough. i never had his heart with me, but if you asked me do i feel sad or desperate, no. i am not. i am not lying. This experience is good enough for now :) hee-hee, after all i never asked for to in a relationship or what. Might sound cowardly to you but i cant accept long distant relationship. with me now moving to a new place, i don't want to be committed in any relationship that might drag me to unnecessary direction.....
That guy? he is somebody whom at 1st day meeting him i told myself: geez, i will never fall for this kind of guy. HAHAHAHA serious! He is so... not gentleman. not even holding the door for me you know!
but upon knowing him more, i admire his vision and character. knowing him makes me know how to dream. yah, a more vivid-solid dream about what i want for future. anyway, people who have dream and confident shines. That's why i want to shine too, to keep my dream and build my confident. He had his negative and plus points. nobody is perfect. We had different faith, and the difference appear mostly when we talked about intangible things. like happiness, love, doing good things and idea of God.
And...too bad, he had put his heart on other girl. And he, for being so insensitive come to tell me how he loves that girl. sad? no. actually by knowing where he sets his heart it's actually when i rest my heart from internal argument between my head (which keep telling me that it's obvious he loves her) and my heart (which even knowing that still hoping and get hurt)
knowing that all i still want to hear and help him make me think that it's funny. part of me says that it's because he had been nice and helpful to me, be there when i need help the most that's why i want to do the same. ya, it's just that simple. but maybe is because i want to be a more caring person. i had never been really caring before, so now when i had a chance to do it i will do it.
i will say this is my form of love. a light love. not bad for beginner. at least i know i am not the type of girl that will fall in love blindly and need people to drag me up from the hell. at least my head is still working and i believe that God will keep me away from harmful thing.
you can say that i haven't fully been in love. or it had to be done blindly that only can be called true love. or anything. we can debate about this until the end of time. hahahaha....
and knowing that i can love like this make me love myself more. people who feels good about themselves produce good result. and also, you have to love yourself so that others can love you. these 2 sentences are really true. i will practice it more.
Thanks God, my next prayer will be... a good and promising job that can be platform to make my dream come true~ now i want to focus on job and dreams. just not going to asked for love anytime soon. But God, if it is really happening then i will just follow your plan and please, let me know that it's love that's coming :)
Let me share with you a story, kinda ridiculous actually but it's oK, coz I wanted to prove that God's Love exist.
Last year, there's time when i was wondering what is love. (haha, i remember i had it in this blog, some post about it) I asked myself, what is love. not family or friend love, but love between he and she. I'm 20 and i can't identify what is love.
So i prayed and ask Lord: Lord, I'm 20 and i don't know what is love. I'm curious, can you teach me what is it? Can you show me how to identify love? Can you tel me what is it? Love-that everyone talks about. I wanted to know.
Today, half year had passed and i had that answer with me now. God had somehow teach me what it is, show me what it feels like through this time. it's only now when i looked back that i realize all those things that happened are answer to my own prayer.
had i become wiser now? i hope i am. now i had my own definition of it. Love is the feeling that you still want to care for him even though you had been hurt and you know where he sets his heart to. I made it sounds so pitiful, but it is not. it's a very light feeling. something calm and cooling. Not needy and not demanding.
yup, i can say that i had met love. this journey had give me the answer to my question. and i think it's enough. i never had his heart with me, but if you asked me do i feel sad or desperate, no. i am not. i am not lying. This experience is good enough for now :) hee-hee, after all i never asked for to in a relationship or what. Might sound cowardly to you but i cant accept long distant relationship. with me now moving to a new place, i don't want to be committed in any relationship that might drag me to unnecessary direction.....
That guy? he is somebody whom at 1st day meeting him i told myself: geez, i will never fall for this kind of guy. HAHAHAHA serious! He is so... not gentleman. not even holding the door for me you know!
but upon knowing him more, i admire his vision and character. knowing him makes me know how to dream. yah, a more vivid-solid dream about what i want for future. anyway, people who have dream and confident shines. That's why i want to shine too, to keep my dream and build my confident. He had his negative and plus points. nobody is perfect. We had different faith, and the difference appear mostly when we talked about intangible things. like happiness, love, doing good things and idea of God.
And...too bad, he had put his heart on other girl. And he, for being so insensitive come to tell me how he loves that girl. sad? no. actually by knowing where he sets his heart it's actually when i rest my heart from internal argument between my head (which keep telling me that it's obvious he loves her) and my heart (which even knowing that still hoping and get hurt)
knowing that all i still want to hear and help him make me think that it's funny. part of me says that it's because he had been nice and helpful to me, be there when i need help the most that's why i want to do the same. ya, it's just that simple. but maybe is because i want to be a more caring person. i had never been really caring before, so now when i had a chance to do it i will do it.
i will say this is my form of love. a light love. not bad for beginner. at least i know i am not the type of girl that will fall in love blindly and need people to drag me up from the hell. at least my head is still working and i believe that God will keep me away from harmful thing.
you can say that i haven't fully been in love. or it had to be done blindly that only can be called true love. or anything. we can debate about this until the end of time. hahahaha....
and knowing that i can love like this make me love myself more. people who feels good about themselves produce good result. and also, you have to love yourself so that others can love you. these 2 sentences are really true. i will practice it more.
Thanks God, my next prayer will be... a good and promising job that can be platform to make my dream come true~ now i want to focus on job and dreams. just not going to asked for love anytime soon. But God, if it is really happening then i will just follow your plan and please, let me know that it's love that's coming :)
Back from Sgp (again)
Hi, haven't been writing lately, had been so busy with...life. hahahha! last friday i went to langkawi, back to KL at monday and went to Sgp at Wed, and back KL again today.
I'm at my new shelter now, somewhere at cheras. (stealing ppl's wireless :P)
Just back from Singapore (again) yeah, damn tired. but can't sleep so i was thinking wanted to watch the movie kaemin lend to me. but once i on my laptop i realize i can online!! (THX GOD!)
ah..what to tell? My life lately had been moving so fast ^^ April and May 2008 definitely are the busiest and messiest time in my 20 years!
this time around is the time i miss my home the most, a place to rest my head and my mind. i wanted to be home so bad... but i cant. i have to hang on. (noo...i just read The Strait times, because of crude oil had reached $135/ barrel now, we will be saying bye bye to LCC flight :( hueks)
hey, i think i had landed my self at a job as Interior designer at a small ID firm at Sgp! goin to start as soon as the Spass out (which will be around 1-2 weeks from now) which means i need to travel there again to do room hunting @_@ heks.... even to think of it had make me feel so tired @_@ i wish i can get a place which is warm and...i will be able to see blue sky and green trees from my window.
i will talk more about it once i confirmed ya... the boss had submitted Spass application online (which cost only $10 for 1 year) and he said everything will be paid by office, and will have no binding contract. i guest this time i really had landed on a promising job.....
Oh, on my 2nd day i was exploring Bugis area alone, i came across a nice short jeans pants! and also my dream t-shirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! guest what! a yellow Spongebob t-shirt!!!! I LOVE IT! and also i found a $10 nice shirt (pale yellow, white, and brown) it's nice! and it's written there '$10' (so hard to resist! :P) and there it goes my $25+$13+$10....
Then i went to Kuan yin Temple at Bugis, a very famous one (and noisy bcoz there's really alot ppl there) and pray for guidance.. then my legs bring me to a large Gothic church. i went in too, and pray again the same thing. it had been 3 years since the last time i been in a church. and orthodox church. (i came across a very pretty mosque too! feel like going in too!!!!!)
When i was inside either the temple or Church, i talked to God. Talking to God, and realizing how my life had gone better lately. How every single little things that happen yesterday which might seems bad actually is leading to a better plan than our humanly-plan. Some bad things that happened months before now when i looked back, i can see that it happened for reasons. And i thanked God for keeping me save from any danger. I'm grateful.
God, thank You so much for all Your guidance...i Love u...
I'm at my new shelter now, somewhere at cheras. (stealing ppl's wireless :P)
Just back from Singapore (again) yeah, damn tired. but can't sleep so i was thinking wanted to watch the movie kaemin lend to me. but once i on my laptop i realize i can online!! (THX GOD!)
ah..what to tell? My life lately had been moving so fast ^^ April and May 2008 definitely are the busiest and messiest time in my 20 years!
this time around is the time i miss my home the most, a place to rest my head and my mind. i wanted to be home so bad... but i cant. i have to hang on. (noo...i just read The Strait times, because of crude oil had reached $135/ barrel now, we will be saying bye bye to LCC flight :( hueks)
hey, i think i had landed my self at a job as Interior designer at a small ID firm at Sgp! goin to start as soon as the Spass out (which will be around 1-2 weeks from now) which means i need to travel there again to do room hunting @_@ heks.... even to think of it had make me feel so tired @_@ i wish i can get a place which is warm and...i will be able to see blue sky and green trees from my window.
i will talk more about it once i confirmed ya... the boss had submitted Spass application online (which cost only $10 for 1 year) and he said everything will be paid by office, and will have no binding contract. i guest this time i really had landed on a promising job.....
Oh, on my 2nd day i was exploring Bugis area alone, i came across a nice short jeans pants! and also my dream t-shirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! guest what! a yellow Spongebob t-shirt!!!! I LOVE IT! and also i found a $10 nice shirt (pale yellow, white, and brown) it's nice! and it's written there '$10' (so hard to resist! :P) and there it goes my $25+$13+$10....
Then i went to Kuan yin Temple at Bugis, a very famous one (and noisy bcoz there's really alot ppl there) and pray for guidance.. then my legs bring me to a large Gothic church. i went in too, and pray again the same thing. it had been 3 years since the last time i been in a church. and orthodox church. (i came across a very pretty mosque too! feel like going in too!!!!!)
When i was inside either the temple or Church, i talked to God. Talking to God, and realizing how my life had gone better lately. How every single little things that happen yesterday which might seems bad actually is leading to a better plan than our humanly-plan. Some bad things that happened months before now when i looked back, i can see that it happened for reasons. And i thanked God for keeping me save from any danger. I'm grateful.
God, thank You so much for all Your guidance...i Love u...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
between helping and getting hurt
never ever put yourself in this situation ok... your life is in your hand, so avoid putting yourself in a bad condition..
my dear friend told me this, the guy that she had crushed on come to tell her about how serious he is towards other girl and ask opinion about how to express his feeling.
(really something you usually saw on drama)
wah.. i asked her why would you want to be his counselor. he could go and pour his frustration to other friend. she said it's because they are good friend and she just want to help. returning the favor for always being helped by this guy.
the girl he had feeling for is avoiding him lately after he showed that he wanted another step. 3 of them are friends, so my dear know this girl too. and know obviously from the way they interact- both of them have feeling for each other. He and she played like they are couple. he and she act like they are lover. but still my dear can stop her heart from liking this guy too.
So i asked my dear, how brave you are to agree listening to him pouring out how he wants to be with that girl. i asked, what about your heart. didn't it break? did it hurt?
She said she can freely admit that she likes that guy. but she also understand everyone had right to like whoever they wanted to like. still, it sounds bad to me.
She said her heart had broken long time ago, hurt so bad, and heal again by prayer and logical analytical mind. it is obvious in her eyes that he likes the other girl. so she knows about it since long. but she told me she couldn't stop her heart from admiring him. but she manage to control her heart and back to her sense, keep being friend with both of them and take it as a lesson.
still, i feel that, she should have just avoid the conversation.
but she said after that conversation it make her heart burden lifted. at least she knows at that point that she can stop hoping for him. she is clear about everything now. unlike previously where she only guessing in the dark. it doesn't feel good she said. her mind keep telling her off, but her heart keep hoping and hoping and hurting herself when she saw them together.
she also never expect to be caught in that conversation.
hmn...for me, just like what Robert Kiyosaki said: it's important to get rich, but it is more important not to make yourself bankrupt when you building your wealth. So i think helping people is definitely a good thing, but it also important not to get yourself hurt. Am i an egoist for thinking like this?
my dear friend told me this, the guy that she had crushed on come to tell her about how serious he is towards other girl and ask opinion about how to express his feeling.
(really something you usually saw on drama)
wah.. i asked her why would you want to be his counselor. he could go and pour his frustration to other friend. she said it's because they are good friend and she just want to help. returning the favor for always being helped by this guy.
the girl he had feeling for is avoiding him lately after he showed that he wanted another step. 3 of them are friends, so my dear know this girl too. and know obviously from the way they interact- both of them have feeling for each other. He and she played like they are couple. he and she act like they are lover. but still my dear can stop her heart from liking this guy too.
So i asked my dear, how brave you are to agree listening to him pouring out how he wants to be with that girl. i asked, what about your heart. didn't it break? did it hurt?
She said she can freely admit that she likes that guy. but she also understand everyone had right to like whoever they wanted to like. still, it sounds bad to me.
She said her heart had broken long time ago, hurt so bad, and heal again by prayer and logical analytical mind. it is obvious in her eyes that he likes the other girl. so she knows about it since long. but she told me she couldn't stop her heart from admiring him. but she manage to control her heart and back to her sense, keep being friend with both of them and take it as a lesson.
still, i feel that, she should have just avoid the conversation.
but she said after that conversation it make her heart burden lifted. at least she knows at that point that she can stop hoping for him. she is clear about everything now. unlike previously where she only guessing in the dark. it doesn't feel good she said. her mind keep telling her off, but her heart keep hoping and hoping and hurting herself when she saw them together.
she also never expect to be caught in that conversation.
hmn...for me, just like what Robert Kiyosaki said: it's important to get rich, but it is more important not to make yourself bankrupt when you building your wealth. So i think helping people is definitely a good thing, but it also important not to get yourself hurt. Am i an egoist for thinking like this?
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