My perception

it is very sad to see haze is covering singapore. and flood flooding some areas of jakarta. at the same time i feel blessed that none of this happens when im in the towns. so protected by the Universe. thank you very much. really.

once, my college teacher told me to write down my thoughts when im brainstorming or when im confused. tying them down to a paper is a best way to rearrange that bundle of mess.

i had started random short greetings with him this morning. i keep reminding myself, do not fall for him again. just correct your mistake. put no other expectation, that's your downfall. no donkey fall in the same pit twice. but im tired of being a coward. my heart is tired of being afraid. yet im afraid of contacting him. afraid of his reaction. afraid of what will become, will i create more hurts to both of us? 

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writing this down make me realize that im at very least make a small step towards changing my heart condition instead of sitting and be a victim. im doing it despite of my fear.