My perception

im home!

after 10 days of holiday, it is time to (re)collect money and saving up for my next holiday.

thank you Lord for your continuous protection, You had kept me save from everything: the rain, flood, accidents, con artists, kidnapper, snatch thieves ect ect.

i caught up with old friends, foods, and shopping. and i was introduced to two very tasty dishes that has lengthen my food list. one is a roasted dug leg from SAVEUR singapore and another one is steak from HOLY COW jakarta.

the highlight of this journey is seeing the church door opened at the tune of the piano, and saw my dear high school friend in a beautiful white gown, with her dad on her right, marched toward the groom. she was beaming with joy, obviously feeling blessed looking at the audiences inside her wedding ceremony.

and also laughing my heart out, randomly at random stuffs with both of my darlings. Inside a department store, we were walking together side by side when i suddenly said, 'ah! so pretty!' and i walked toward a bag, while my darling on the left rush to the left and my daring on the right walk to the right side, and i looked around to find them both starring at different items and said, 'yes,so pretty right?'

i also met up with him. and unknowingly, i realize i still have huge regret about us. a big sense of guilt. totally unfinished and totally not over him yet.

as for now, at least im glad that im forced to face this fact only 8 months late. not 8 years late.

and as for now, im not really sure what to do to overcome my regret. to get over him. may Universe open up some clues for me as to what i have to do, and courage for me to actually do whatever needed.