My last minute changes

so many things happened in this 3 weeks, it's a lot of GOOD things and some bad things.

let me start with the latest last minute decision case.

last week Singapore trip with dad (after the graduation ceremony) ended with i found a room at Redhill area with enca's help. it's her church friend's apartment with one vacancy. The whole apartment are indo girls, and it's a share room. it cost $390 for me, with electric and water it will become $440 each month. but renting that room means i will be bound by a-minimum-6 months-commitment. because at Singapore this and next month will be the moving in-out month, and after that people will settle down. if i suddenly moved out after 2-3 months then it will be hard for them to find a new person.

secondly, i get zero reply from all application i sent. i had tried called back for 2 that i want but still no reply. it feels very frustrated every time i checked my email and no new message in mailbox. more than 25 online application. perhaps the market had really slowed down.. or just i run out of luck?

thirdly, each time i enter Singapore i will be granted 30 days social visit. if within 1st 30 days i still didn't get any job offer, i need to come out (most probably to Malaysia, where my student visa still exist) and in again to be granted next 30 days. but the 3rd time i do that again it's most probably i wont get 30 days again. why? immigration might suspect I'm illegal worker!

one of my friend had found job there and started working while the permit is still in progress, so he had to go out and in Singapore 3 times (walking around in Sgp using social visit not S pass), and the 3rd time he only got 14 days! (Luckily within that 14 days finally his pending-approval-S pass came out)

Fourth, this is the most unforeseen reason. since 2 months ago i found that my right buttock feel uncomfortable after i sit too long at the office. that time happened only at Friday night (after whole week spending a lot of times sitting at chair) and slowly i feel it more, even when i sit at the car i will need to shift few times because....it just doesn't feel right. i can feel the bone. at 1st i think it's just because i sit too long. or i think too much. but lately i had feel it even more. even when i lay down at bed and when i walk. my right leg doesn't feel good at the lower hips.

and this week my left leg starts to feel -ma-pi- that kind of sensation you feel when your blood circulation not smooth, (in indo is called kesemutan) nah~ i start to feel it, 1st day is when i stand up after sitting. today, it's whole day long. when i sit, when i walk and when i lay down. not a very obvious or serious feel, but it's getting more and more :(

and this 3 days my right waist feels not good :( more and more uncomfortable :(

with all this added, i conclude that i should stay at KL 1st, go check my legs 1st and wait until i get job offer then only i move.

with all of this added, i cancel my saturday morning-bus-to singapore right on the night before the day (wasted RM35 bus ticket to sgp and RM50 bus ticket for sgp-KL which i prepared for langkawi trip) , i cancel the room at singapore (and pay for the penalty 1st month rental $390) and....went to Port dickson to stay for few days at kilikulu's house. Thanks to kili...i can sleep peacefully at her house and make small plan for few days ahead :)

what a messy weeks... I'm jobless, homeless, planless, luckless, restless (seriously, at morning i woke up feeling have to rush to check mail, and become frustrated because zero reply, and added my legs condition. and headache thinking how should i move, i cant sleep peacefully)

but because of all this happened, i realize how much people around me care for me. Thanks God for all this love, I'm really blessed..Thanks for all those cares, those help, those msn messenges, and those encouragement. I'm blessed.