:(

i had been caught in a super embarrassing situation. a super super super one.
plainly because i had been stupid enough to let myself in :(

worst thing about me is that i don't really like to initiate conversation or ask lots of things. feel that i need extra energy to do that, or sometimes just feel like...hmn.... don't feel like asking anything. feel that my mind is a super blank one. argg..................

aaaaaaaaa....... it turns to be disadvantage, really.

and other thing I'm really bad at, is to ask people to go out with me.

all sort of communication things, that needs me to be active, i really sucks at that part.

:( :( :( :(

well, not in good mood today. stupid student counselor, said 'Ok don't worry, we will get your pasport done by time.' for 3 times!!!! and today i went there he said this and that. said he was on leave yesterday, and the one in charge was on medical leave also. i'm suppose to fly back tomorrow you know!!!

wait, luckily, i didn't get the ticket. so it's not tomorrow. but i told him last week and last 2 weeks ago, I'm goin back tomorrow and he said ok 3 times.

F.U.C.K

and still having problem with tickets. i don't know which one to buy. so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got another job offer today. will go interview tomorrow~

let's just be honest, i don't think she-who calls me-knows I'm indonesian. she sure sure back off when she know that she will need to make the working permit for me. never mind, i don't have anything schedule for tomorrow too........

hiks. being 20 and lonely.