when things happen for a reason, and that you realize there's a meaning behind it, stay awake.

i could attracts the money that i need, the parking lot that i need, the weather, but i had never ever thought about the kind of relationship my mom and i should be.

all i did was complaining, and remembering hurtful feelings she made me felt. and this morning i get another bad experience.

each time it happened i said to myself, im sick of this, i want to get out of this house. but look at where i am still.

but now each time i feel bad, instead of numbing myself with watching dramas or comic that pull me further from reality, i go to youtube and listen to self-heal-talks.

this video is a good one.

i am soooo thankful that finally my client said they like my exterior design. thank you universe, now i gain more confident designing exterior =D

and it is all thanks to dad's simple question: 'have you check out the site yet?'

and so i went to take a look, have a better understanding of the surrounding, what's on the left or right or back side of the house.

and i am thankful that i dont need a doctor to certified my boobs that they are authentic. hehe.

i found it funny and pitiful for actress nowdays that they find the need to have their boobs certified by a doctor.

-a certified real boobs- LOL poor thing. entertainment circle...

http://sg.entertainment.yahoo.com/news/lin-chi-lings-breasts-certified-095000925.html

that sneaker story maybe is to remind me not to think too much about mr. right who has yet to appear.

btw, i think if the next time you are sad and you found something that could cheer you up and take your mind away from your problems, that is something you must take note of.

for me, design is that one thing that no matter how upset i am, if i start browsing and looking at all those pretty interiors, architecture or landscaping, i feel excited and happy. and in love.

so thank you universe for allowing me to work on something that i really love.

today im thankful

without planning it, i managed to buy a pair of new sneaker. i saw it at mantos, but they didn't have my size. deep down i was sure i can find it at megamas. i didn't plan it or thinking about it, but today somehow universe arrange it for me. i was there, with the money, within a moment, and they have my size.

so thank you.

on the afternoon i took out the book that i brought last year at sg (sigh, not even half-read)

it revolved too much on advertising and graphic design, i wish it is more on general design. but the author's word of encouragement is applicable to any business. basically he said -trust yourself, your own instinct and judgement no matter how it is judged by the others.

because he proved some of the weirdest ideas he had had became among the most remarkable piece of work in advertising history (well, im not well versed in that) but his confidence really struck me. he made me believe in his words.

be confident girl, be a confident girl.

My head is kinda messy now.

dad just inform me that something i am dreaming about and looking forward to is cancelled. that is one dream that i thought is finally coming true, and he said mom decided to cancel it.

my dream got further away. 

i think i am sad.

the cloudy weather made me kinda moody and feeling manja.