today i m thankful for the cloudy cool weather.

sadly, one of our worker quits, and that has made another one saying he is quitting too. the problem with the first one is that he smartly avoided the questioning by saying he is going home to visit his sickly grandmother.

the second one aren't as lucky. we try to hold him back by saying you should give us some consideration by allowing a certain period of time for us to find a replacement before you leave. yeah, i think it is a fair rule to give one month notice before leaving.......

and of this issue the most unlucky one could be dad and i. because mom can never cope with any kind of stress especially regarding not having maid/ worker at home. so she is starting slashing and being rude to me already.

luckily i have a secret charm. my trip to redang! ;)

today im thankful

i get a new client, he is my cousin's boyfriend. my up and coming -cousin in law.

it's a 3 level shophouse, with the characteristic of apartment because of the size.

thank you universe for keep pouring money and design opportunities. i need it for my travel fund ;)

and i found what i want to give for my brother's bday. hahahha, i told him i will pay for a trip to bangkok =D he just need to pay for his own shopping. i really hope he could come along, it would be fun shopping with him because he is a good bargain-er hehehehhe. and he is so fashion conscious. and he got few thailand friends =D

i also received email from my bestfriend, who always encourage me and give support, listen to me whine.

so thank you for today Universe. i will love myself better and prepare myself for the coming ordeal. i mean, holiday ;)

REDANG IM COMING!

=D hope that everybody will get along, and it would be a memorable beach trip, full of laughter and sunshine.

i pray that the weather will be great, the sea will be calm and we could spot many beautiful fishes

i should start packing little stuffs =D

and i must stop letting anger getting hold of me.

today i am thankful

for the simple breeze that come cheering me up

for the electricity and the aircon to chill me up

for the smooth internet that opens up informations that entertain me up

i bake brownie today. it is very simple and the texture was great. but taste wise it isn't great, probably i need to experiment with another brand's chocolate.

lately im slipping away. i thought of him again and there's anger and disappointment. i wonder alot, and i am sadden. it is so easy to provoke my mind into thinking that im unworthy. and into thinking many, many pointless arguments. they are running around in my head.

funny, i dont even think i miss him anymore.

today i am very thankful

i talked to my ex colleague whom i know had been to Redang few times to ask for his advice.

and asking him if he would like to go there together and he said yes! he would love to have an escape too!

and seeing my schedule to attend wedding early June at Sg, and i think mom and dad wont like it if i fly here and there seperately, therefore! i set to go to redang before the wedding!

thanks God im so certain i can go and touch this legendary water in more than a month's time!!!

=D so happy!

i think i slipped, and i am sorry.

shouldn't let outward experiences define my inner mood.

saw a post, although i dont really agree to everything in there, but i really agree to these lines.

thank you that i am out of it already.

HEAR WHAT OPRAH WINFREY HAD TO SAY ABOUT MEN

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. 
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you. A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. 
Look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. 

string along: To keep (someone) waiting or in a state of uncertainty.

she endlessly keep saying that im no good, while on the other hand she has never given me either the support that i need.

but along the way i made generous people who had given me their encouragements, who told me that im good enough for whatever im doing. and also hearing friends' stories of how they too lack of encouragement from their parents yet they managed to see past through it.

so i really dont need her support anymore. whether she agrees or oppose to my work, it wont stop me from moving. because i had seen past the issue of 'you are my mother you should be the most supportive one'

when we can pull down those labels, how people should behave, the control freak within ourselves- i think our heart will be much lighter.