i had a good monday

it was boring at the office with close-to-zero things to do

i played FB until sien, msn so sien, so i scanned some references

got some inspiration on how to refine my portfolio on the way to class

and the class turns out to be a fun one :)

after roller blading injury, i had stopped aikido for 3 months

last night was the 4th time, and i decided to attend 2 classes. the seniors are cool and helpful, i enjoy it very much :)

and the most amazing part was that i reached home right before a heavy rain fell. a super sudden and heavy one. Thanks God!

Xiao yan gave me a red egg for breakfast

another 4 more days and i will meet kiki hehehe...

thank you universe!

and thank you for the extra income!

i had a nice weekend,
with nice ppl
and nice food
and nice weather

and most importantly i enjoy myself and it is good :)
thank you universe!

i promise to be good.

songs: savage garden

some songs that i love :)

best thing




Crash and burn




i want you (love this!! and the up beat totally helps when i doze off in office ^^)




to the moon and back (ah..)




trully madly deeply ~ one of their best song!





i know i love you ~ simply timeless :)



'i dreamed you into life'


and how true, how true. affirmation



'i belief in karma what you give is what you get return'



and last but not the least, one that makes tears rolling stubbornly out of my eyes, two beds and cofee machine



'but the mind is a amazing thing'

it is a wonder by itself..how i always manage to sink and swin back and then sink again.

almost lost my voice and forgotten how to speak.

couldn't find words to say. just how tight my lips had become lately.

and feel even lonelier when i am in the crowd.

on average lately i talk around 10-20 words only in one day.

=.= huh.

happiness?

i came across a blog from my friend's friends list.

i was overwhelm by her writing

couldn't had been closer to the old me.

who had been struggling with the term 'happiness'

had been envying why other could be so happy and i couldn't

had been so jealous to see happiness delivered to them and not to me

who had been miserable and up to the point i just want to fade away

---

she said she just deleted previous post about commiting suicide, solely coz she couldn't do that.

and mentioned that people keep telling her to find happiness from within

and she replied 'how can i be happy when i am not?'

---

truly understand every single words she wrote. had been there myself.

i posted a comment, hope that she will decided to try

i said, if you keep holding on to that question, you will never arrive at happiness. no matter how blessed you are in the current situation.

so i said, instead of saying that, why not change it to, 'how can i make myself happy when i am not?'

so i said, do things that you like! play, eat, hangout with friends, anything!

and the tricky part actually is this: appreciation.

so i said, do those things that you like and say, 'it makes me feel better, i appreciate it'

so, if she is now in -100, it wont make her +100, but slowly will pull herself up, -98 maybe?

hope she will open her heart and decided to do herself good.

because it cant be anymore true when it is said that 'happiness comes from within'

it is all depends on how we see things. our perception is the key.

OMG it's december already!

at the dawn of my 22nd year, this is the 1st time ever i had felt such a significant, reluctant feel of flipping my table calender from november to the last page: December.

too reluctant to my own surprise.

why, why, why do you asked?

only one thing that could drive you into this stage of mind. failure to accomplish goals that you had set early this year.

again, it is about me planning diligently but failed following the plans.

to said i had failed probably is too much, since there's still...26 days more?

at this point of time, i remembered what Donald said, (btw, it's Trump, not Duck :p) he said,

do not focus on your problems, but instead to the solution (or finding the solution) there's no problems too big to be handled. when you feel so, it is because you had been feeling tiny, or being tiny.

and of course followed by his famous phase, (beside 'you are fired!') 'THINK BIG'

seeing myself now, i am still far from grapsing the true meaning of that phase. and even further from being able to yield it with 100% strength from my spirit and mind.

ah....

enough rant. so focus on the solution.

sleep less and awake longer. awake longer for....excersice, reading, sewing, exploring, cooking (perhaps), upgrading wardrobe and my fashion sense, researches, study, mandarin, absorbing as much art sense as i can, soul searching,

for the sake of upgrading my soul, for the firmer tummy cells, for stronger character mold, for sharper mind.

comic: liar game roots of A -chapter 6

i came across a nice comic.

read it, it is not as shallow as it seems.

if you are seeing what i am seeing.




link









what i saw is the idea that even if we are already with our soul mate, the destinied one, twin flame, or whatever you want to call it,

it wont work out if both party are not being honest and- yeah- working it out!

cheers to all couples out there, who are having quarrell, and thinking, 'is she/he trully my soulmate?'

the bottom line is, it wont work if you two are not working it out :)