happiness?

i came across a blog from my friend's friends list.

i was overwhelm by her writing

couldn't had been closer to the old me.

who had been struggling with the term 'happiness'

had been envying why other could be so happy and i couldn't

had been so jealous to see happiness delivered to them and not to me

who had been miserable and up to the point i just want to fade away

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she said she just deleted previous post about commiting suicide, solely coz she couldn't do that.

and mentioned that people keep telling her to find happiness from within

and she replied 'how can i be happy when i am not?'

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truly understand every single words she wrote. had been there myself.

i posted a comment, hope that she will decided to try

i said, if you keep holding on to that question, you will never arrive at happiness. no matter how blessed you are in the current situation.

so i said, instead of saying that, why not change it to, 'how can i make myself happy when i am not?'

so i said, do things that you like! play, eat, hangout with friends, anything!

and the tricky part actually is this: appreciation.

so i said, do those things that you like and say, 'it makes me feel better, i appreciate it'

so, if she is now in -100, it wont make her +100, but slowly will pull herself up, -98 maybe?

hope she will open her heart and decided to do herself good.

because it cant be anymore true when it is said that 'happiness comes from within'

it is all depends on how we see things. our perception is the key.