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as usual, im really grateful that universe let me take my life step by step. once at a time.

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being born as a human in a decent living condition enable me to learn how to read and write, thank you universe.

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since i back hometown, i had chance to come across more reading about Taoism and now Buddhism. (the school library have some books on it!)

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Buddha said, it all started in the mind. we are what we thought of, and we will be what we are thinking today. something like that. so He stressed about learning how to control the mind and tame our senses.

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thank you universe for letting me to have chance to come out with the decision to stop complaining about the cold. as Buddha said, not to let emotions running over every wild direction, but to learn to take things as what it is. so i stop painting 'cold' with 'miserable' and now im LOT more happier. it's cold (and everybody tell me it will only get colder) but im taking it as what it is now.

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thank you universe for my housemate, although we hardly see each other, but we chatted nicely whenever we met, and im more convinced that to smile is spreading good karma.

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but currently my mood swing follows the weather forecast. whenever it is sunny, im happy and when it is cloudy im miserable. no good no good. i must learn to detach from this. the sun is rising later and later and disappearing earlier and earlier. and it is forecast to be cloudy this few days.

i just dont know....even if the temperature is the same, but with sun around, i feel much more...safe. a big security sense.

no good.

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today still cried, because i woke up and feel the sensation on my left leg back again. because of sleeping on soft bed for past 2 weeks. and the uncomfy chair. im really afraid my back bone got problem again. haiz. but universe offer me a quick solution...i went to the empty room, and luckily the bed is much firmer. phew.

tonight will have a good rest.

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tomorrow will be my very 1st class, hope everything will be good! amen!