yesterday

i want to write something now (granted that im waiting for my render to come out so it'ss okaayy)

recently the hot news here is the sad story of a suicide case of an indonesian student, who is at his final year, doing his final year project (fyp)

which is to say, my batch, and my age.

i dont know him personally, but knowing this kind of story makes you think alot.

the details of why this incident can happen is still not released, but the story was that he stabbed his lecturer for his fyp during their tutorial, then slid his own wrist, and jump off from 4 (or 5) stories down. it is said that his fyp - which deadline is very near by now- was having alot of rejections.

then today's newspaper is saying that his lecturer is a good and helpful lecturer, while this student is a quite and private and a keen gamer. well, i just dont like the way they write it.

i was walking down to get my lunch when i think of what must have been going on on his head before he decided to suicide. or to stab his lecturer. as student on design course, my whole college years was about finding inspirations, struggling through alot of rejections from lecturers, and executing whatever things i have when the deadline hits.

what kind of rejections could he have until he so fade up with his life and decided to end it?

poor thing, may he rest in peace.