this cat is stolen from a friend's facebook page.

he is my desktop wallpaper now. i want to hug this little fellow so bad!

every now and then i felt like he is saying, 'what? it is not finished yet?' or 'so, you going to continue watching drama instead of working?' and made me feel guilty...

it is funny how i dislike cat yet i cant resit and kept falling for cute cats pictures shared online.

somebody re-draw this picture above and added a hat, a pair of boots and a sword. totally loving it!

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i am currently re-watching 'We Got Married' korean variety shows. 

when i meet him, i would like us to celebrate 22nd days together, 222 days together hahahaha

there was a wish to wear old high school uniform and go out on a date wearing that..hahhaha i think im late for that. i wish i had the courage to be in a relationship back then. how priceless it would have been.

and i will remember to make journals. make handmade gifts. cook things for him.

support and assist him. 

and be patient.

really really patient.

and remember to do pull and push. 

the kind of love i wish to find in my husband is

the quite kind. a soft one. warm one.

there's no need to speak everything out. there's no need for continuous non stop conversation.

but we will try to understand each other. putting ourselves in each other's shoes.

there's no need to feel, 'im the superior one' -'you should follow my lead'

there's no need to 'you are so stupid, what can you do WITHOUT ME??'

there's no need for that. really.

today im thankful for the foods that i have, for the air that i breath, for the sun that shines on us, and for the clean water access that i have.

for the air con to protect me from the hot humid weather. for the internet that connects me to some friends out there.

and btw, yesterday a friend came barging in and said, 'im sad'

so naturally, i asked why. and there he went all the way pouring in what kind of blow he had received from a girl he fancy.

im perplexed that these days there's still people want to know my opinion about their love life. i mean, im not in a relationship myself, who is this fool that come asking for my opinion?

but he said he felt enlightened. because i asked, 'why should your track record defines who you are-or who you will be tomorrow?' because he seemed...proudly announcing some negative aspect of himself.

i didn't know i could come out with that kind of sentence. that's Universe's working to him through me. i really wish he would not be so easily disheartened again.

im glad he came barging in with his story. im glad to know i could pass on the good deeds that i had received from other friends who had kindly heard me out when i was in trouble myself.

so if any of you perhaps needed any random ears (or eyes lol coz we are chatting) if ever you wish to be heard-randomly. maybe...could try mine.

today i am thankful for the electricity, it has allowed me to do things i want to do.

and i am thankful for the peace of mind that helped me to finish what i had abandoned for few weeks.

well, actually. it was a piece of comment i heard from my contractor. it fuels my spirit and 'i will do my best and i wont disappoint my client anymore. i want to improve my service' that's what i thought when i heard that piece of embarrassing comment...

and thank you to mom, recently she had been gentle although i am currently sick. usually when any of us sick, she got twice harsher. im just relieved she isn't this time.

thank you..

I feel sad when it turns out that -me, rearranging brother's room (i change the position of the bed and wardrobe) had led to dad and mom quarrelling for days.

i change it to a better position according the knowledge i gathered from reading fengshui books. the door opens to (hit) the bed head, and it is a coffin position (facing main door)

but after few days of rearranging stuffs back to it's original position, i found out that mom is absolutely reluctant to change old position. or throw away unnecessary stuffs.

to me, there's some drawers that could be used for other purpose, and rather than listening to my proposal she only wants to be back to how it was.

if there's a better way of using the space, why not? it was fine the way it was, or was it?

im tired. and i was sincere offering help to cook last night's dinner and she rudely shoved me away. is my cooking that bad?

thank you Universe, for teaching me something new again.

it is true that i have heard, 'you create your outer world from your mind/ instead of responding or reacting to it, take a step forward to create it'- those sorts of words.

honestly, never truly understand them actually.

i had been coughing since early this week, and yesterday it took for the worst. feverish and constantly coughing with yellow mucus non stop coming out- i simply turned into a coughing monster.

i had been looking forward to this friday night. a friend's birthday dinner. everybody will be there and it would be fun and i simply do not want to miss it.

but seeing my condition, by my estimation it would need more than a day to recover.

"right, how can i go? i shouldn't go. i would scare everybody off with my cough"
"sigh, but i want to go. -oh well, but i shouldn't, really"

in between my afternoon naps, i was back at my laptop to draw slowly and listening to Louise Hay on youtube. i can't clearly remember which sentence, but it told me to clearly visualize what i want, not simply going around reacting to my outer world.

"hmnn? so my coughing is my outer world reality. while inside, i want to instantly recover and be at the bday dinner without coughing a single cough"
"oh dear, impossible! you shouldn't go, dont go around spreading bacteria"
"i dont think i can recover this fast"
"but i wish to be there together with them"
"CAN YOU PLEASE MAKE UP YOUR MIND?!"

it's funny, i did cough once or twice during the dinner but it is really the first time ever for me to recover that quick from my fever. i knew that laughter could help me to recover faster and i laughed alot during the dinner. creating memories with them, that is way more important than my whim over little fever.

thank you for this lesson universe. i should go on stronger on mastering my own mind.